Today is the last of August. He's still here, but not doing so well. Yesterday he complained of back pain. Hell it's not his back, it's his kidneys. He's rapidly loosing this battle now. He's block headded and, no matter what, he's going to be gone soon.

Watched Sen. Ted Kennedy's funeral yesterday. It was historic of course, and sad. Our lives have been lived throughout the history that was the Kennedy era. It ended for Ted and it will end for my Bill in a matter of days.

He can't walk for very long and hates to go to the store because they are so big. I tell him to ride a cart where appropriate, but he says no. Stubborn and doesn't want to appear weak. He is dying and nothing I can say will change that.

On the subject of family. He doesn't want to see anyone. Not his mother, sisters, friends or our children. "Just call to have me creamated. NO funeral." Like we can afford a funeral. I can't even afford to have him creamated. It's hell being on a fixed income when you get nothing but necessary funds.

I may post here again, or not. It's only been to let off steam. If you have read any of this keep your loved ones safe. May you all walk in sunshine.